40 Days – The End.

So I’m cheating a little bit because the end of the 40 days program is technically tomorrow, but it’s Yoga Tuesday here on hnwcassandra, so deal.

It’s been a long, crazy journey to get here. Immediate thoughts? I feel good, internet. Physically good. I crave my practice more then ever. I feel lean, mean and strong on my mat. The fruit fast (although panic inducing) made me really crave certain foods, like tomatoes and avocados and brussel sprouts, and depend less on other foods, like Lean Cuisine and bacon. I still haven’t had a bagel yet because I’m still pretty sure once I do I will fall back into the deep rabbit hole that is bagelly deliciousness, baby steps here. 

Spiritually? I don’t know. I’ll be dead honest, my meditation practice is still awful. I am a naturally twitchy person. I don’t sit well. The only times I can sit still for an extended period of time is when a) I’ve just painted my nails or b) a good episode of eitherDoctor Who or Battlestar Galatica is on – although let’s get real, all of the episodes of those shows are good. 

Emotionally? I’ve been up and down. We’ve discussed how last week for me was less then stellar. Three weeks ago, however, I was on top of the world. That’s just life, though.

Bottom line is, I’d absolutely do it again, in a year or two. I think my favorite part and the one worth coming back for is the community. For 40 days I had a group of people struggling with the same things I was struggling with, who I could call on at any time, facebook, phone, and practice with, and I feel like I share a bond with the people in my studio that I didn’t have before.  I can fast or meditate or practice any time I choose, but during the 40 days there’s a sense of camaraderie that you can’t get anywhere else. There’s someone there not only to push you forwards, but to pick you back up.

My graduation photo, featuring mi madre.

It was a crazy ride, internet. If you ever get the chance to do it, I highly recommend it.